L’appel du Vide

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call of the void, curiosity of unknown, fleeting, imp of the perverse, l'appel du vide, poem, psychological phenomenon, urge to jump, window sill

 

Perched on a window sill

12 feet above the ground

I gaze with awe at the vast dark sky

Lost in the sound

Of the gentle, slow hum of cars passing by

Then,

My eyes wander to the asphalt concrete below

And I experience an unusual yet familiar urge

To take a leap

To answer

The call of the void

 

Often, I’ve encountered

This bizarre psychological phenomenon

A subconscious rebellion

Against rational behaviour

The Imp of the Perverse

Driven by curiosity of the unknown

Rather than suicidal ideation

 

This urge

However irresistible

Is always fleeting

And never overwhelming. .

Blissful Night

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beautiful eyes, blissful, breathe me, embrace, fingers entwined, intimacy, night, pictures, poem, quotes

As we lay together

Under the sheets

Our fingers entwined

Your stubble grazed my nape

Face buried in my hair

You breathed me in

Your breath slow and heavy

As you bit me playfully

 

Your hands

Warm upon my skin

Wandered, travelled down

Rested in the curve of my hips

I melted in your embrace

Traced

And ever so lightly

Kissed the outlines of your lips

 

Hours went by

As we revelled in this intimacy

Your touch was pure ecstasy

And when the early morning rays

Caressed the room

One look

At your sweet giddy grin

Your alluring glinting grey eyes

And I knew I’m in love

 

Reunion Anxiety

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afraid, anxiety, bond, excitement, jagged, meeting after years, physical proximity, poem, quotes, reunion, test of time

 

 

As the day nears

My excitement turns to anxiety

After years

Of being dependent on technology

The notion

Of being in your physical proximity

Terrifies

Intrigues me

 

We’ve evolved

In ways we never thought possible

But has our bond stood the test of time

Or have we grown apart in ways

We aren’t consciously aware of

 

I’m afraid

Of awkward silences

Of things going wrong

Not living up to your expectations

Or peering into your soul

And not knowing who you are anymore

 

Will we feel like jagged pieces of a puzzle?

Or fit unnervingly well?

Only time will tell. .

 

Mental Regression

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absence, anguish, mental regression, pictures, poem, quotes, reservoir of memories, set on fire, shredding letters, vengeance

heartworm

n. a relationship or friendship that you can’t get out of your head, which you thought had faded long ago but is still somehow alive and unfinished, like an abandoned campsite whose smoldering embers still have the power to start a forest fire.

 

I’ve been trying

To be oblivious to your resounding absence

To not overlook your arrogance

To loathe you with a vengeance

For inflicting such mental anguish

 

I shred your letters

Along with the ones I penned

But never sent

Set them on fire

Blinked back tears

And watched them turn to ashes

 

I buried your ring

And threw everything I owned

Touched by you

Far into the sea

That reminded me

Of your existence

 

Momentarily

I forget all about you

Then,

Our reservoir of memories

Starts to spill

My mind mentally regresses

To when time stood still

All those suppressed feelings

Creep in again

And I land back to square one

 

It’s a constant battle between remembering and forgetting. .

 

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